Thursday, January 20, 2005

well.. i'm back.. didnt blog for a long time.. coz my pc was down.. den to his house for servicing.. den aafter that went to sim lim square to be sent for repair.. and oso one of my ram which was damaged.. my window was corrupted.. burner spoilt.. haf to buy a new burner.. den in order to save 4481 of my songs which i haf collected during the past 1 yr.. nit to buy an external hard disk.. he chose a 160MB hard disk for mi.. and a Magnitude de external casing.. the whole sim lim square.. oni got 2.. the design kan chio.. not air tight de.. altogether cost mi ard 337 bucks.. gave him the external casing and 160MB hard disk as he had been aiming it for a long time.. hmm.. alot of things happened during these days.. quarrelled wif my dad over my work and my cpu.. he realli made a mess out of my life.. he almost disappear from my life.. at that point of time.. he tot my dad disapprove us being together as a frend.. and he told my mummy he wouldn't contact mi anymore.. i was damn sad and fustrated wif my dad.. i cried for hours.. den my mummy came to my room.. saw mi crying.. she asked mi wad happened.. she called him up and explained the whole situation to him.. was supposed to mit up on tht beri day to collect my pc.. but my dad spoiled everything.. even though my mummy explained to him.. it doesnt seems to work at all.. at night he called mi.. told mi he felt beri stressed and failure.. wadeva he wanted to do.. he will nv finished it.. he said he wanted to gif up on his dreams and for pc stuffs.. he asked mi to take care of myself.. i told him alot of stuffs.. and tht i can gif up everything but not him.. i just cant live without him.. after some times.. i managed to pursuade him.. alot of things happened.. but i dunno how should i put it in.. those who noe mi well enough.. would noe bahz.. these 3 days.. we were realli damn close.. i realli did enjoy myself.. it was the happiest days of my life.. too bad.. he's injured.. haiz.. i tink i made him angry ytd.. till now.. i haben receive a single call frm him.. he said he wont call mi in future.. i realli scared tht he mean it.. but all i can sae is i dun mean wad i sae.. i was feeling damn dulan at tht point of time.. i just missed him alot.. i wanna be back to the old days.. like wad we were during the past 3 days.. i feel so lost.. i regretted so much for saying stuffs i shouldnt sae.. there's no turning back for mi now.. i just wan him back in my life.. to me.. he's my everything

*boy.. if u happened to pass by my blog.. i just wanna let u noe tht.. i didnt mean wad i said.. i miss u alot.. i miss ur voice.. i miss the way u tickle mi.. i miss the way u play wif my hair.. i miss the way u pinch mi.. i miss the way u used to hold my hand.. alot of times i feel like hugging u.. but i dun haf the courage to hug u tight.. u're realli the someone in my life.. i cant do without u.. pls dun leave mi alone.. i realli nit u alot.. i cant tell u all these face to face.. but i hope u still remember wad i've smsed u.. i love u more den anyone do.. all the obstacles that we've gone thru.. all the things we've done before.. u bear to let all these memories fade away.. the image of u keep appearing in my mind.. i just wanna hold u close to mi and to make u mine.. everytime i'm wif u.. i feel so happy and contented.. i dun dare to ask for more.. wad i ask for.. is ur love.. although u're always by my side.. but to mi.. to reach u.. it seems damn far.. i oni wished tht i'm able to see u everyday.. and tht i'll receive a call frm u everynite.. all these time.. i've been waiting and waiting.. for u to call and tok to mi.. but now.. it seems so impossible.. can u realli forget the time we used to spent together.. can u realli forget the love and care i showered to you.. can u realli forget the kiss tht u've given mi.. all these moment and actions.. are realli important to mi.. i realli hoped u'll cor mi and tht we'll be back to wad we used to be.. i'll still love u no matter wad.. it's a life time promise i made to u.. just 3 more days.. and it's my 18th birthday.. i just wanna spend this special days wif u.. i hope everything will turn out right during this day


[..+ wawa +..] Thinking Of You At 3:46 AM!